Feeling alone

We as humans tend to be social creatures, needing to form familiar bonds and social structures with those around us. But when you begin to feel alone because you dont feel that you can communicate with the people in your life, things tend to take a turn for the worse.

When you have situations arise in your life that you just need the comfort and advice of your tribe but you can not fully open up to everyone because you are afraid of the reticule and judgement that you would receive. It makes it even more difficult. Especially when you are already dealing with depression, anxiety, and other mental health related issues. But still you just bare your cross when you cant even bare your own thoughts and keep moving forward. You fear every phone call, every knock on the door, every email, text, or PM you get. Wondering if that communique is the one that strikes the deadly blow. No one could beat you up worse than your own psyche. Because who knows you better? Who is with you 24/7? 

One piece of advice I could give someone who has someone who has mental health issues is this. If they confide in you, good, bad, or indifferent. Do not tell their story to someone else. Do not make fun of them with your other friends when they are not around. And assure them that you will not do these things. Because people who suffer with mental health issues typically are over thinkers. And will play out every possible scenario in their head to the point of driving them mad. It consumes our every waking thought. It burdens us with the thought that you may do these things. Even if you say you wouldn't, we still dont 100% believe you. That is why so many who suffer with these hidden diseases never come forward. Its the fear. Its the guilt of being sick. Its so many things that are physical, made up, and everything in between. Feeling alone, when you have so many people around you is not a pleasant feeling. Your inner darkness tells you all kinds of horrible things. And after awhile it becomes a lullaby and you get hypnotized and begin believing everything it says. 

Dont make people feel alone in a crowded room. Be their touch stone. Be the keeper of their secrets and stories. Be their vault.