Cant Shake It

I am seriously feeling out of sorts. I have to many damn questions in my head and I feel lost.
I just tried to make a video for the YouTube Channel Vlog but I just stammered through it. I have this guilty feeling of needing to do more, but having no will or motivation to do more.

I am constantly tired, and after having just had dental work done, I really don’t feel like doing anything besides sleeping all day. I don’t really feel depressed, but I don’t feel optimistic either. I feel like things are slipping out of my hands. I feel like there is so much that needs to be done, but I don’t know where to begin. Why am I feeling like this?

I have so much that I want to say to people but I can not seem to find the words to express to them what I want to tell them. I feel like I am wasting my time and everyone else’s time with my (at this time) “self imposed” drama. And that is really what it feels like. That I am picking at a scab hoping that it bleeds, just for something to do. But I don’t want to be ‘that’ person. The ‘pay attention to me’ person who has to be the center of everyone’s universe. However, I don’t feel like any one is really paying attention to me.

Im hoping to be out of this funk soon. Otherwise this is going to be a VERY long winter :(