Fall once again

 So, life has been fairly good the last few weeks. There was some stress and duress and a small bout of depression and anxiety, but thankfully nothing like Fall of 2024 when I was the most suicidal, I had been ever. This time last year I had so much piled up on me that it was just overwhelming. I had my book that was about to be published, that was far behind the deadline that I was comfortable with. My father's birthday hit me hard that year. Plus, a person who I thought was a friend, ended our 14yr friendship, plus caused another person to remove themselves from my life.

I just keep thinking back and trying to figure out why things were so difficult then vs now. Sure, I've had my ups and downs this year, but strangely nothing as bad. I feel healthier than I ever have been. I'm losing weight, and I am able to walk longer and further than ever before. I can actually feel the muscles developing under the fat. When I place my hands on my sides it feels strong and not squishy and pillowy. I've challenged myself to swimming at least a mile a day. I took on not one but two different fitness challenges. One that I have to walk 50 miles from September 1st to October 31st, and one that I have to swim 5 miles for The American Cancer Society. 
As of writing this post, I have completed 4.60 miles of the ACS challenge, and 13.71 total for my #fall50challenge

I think the other thing that has helped me this time around is that I am back in therapy and seeing two different therapists. If you have been following along with the YouTube Channel or the Podcast you will know about this journey and the new self-discoveries made during this. I'm still working on my writing projects. I still need to re-edit my currently published book Carpe Diem Scroto 365 Daily Affirmations, but have been working more on my two upcoming books Carpe Diem Viate, and The Healed Child and the Toxic Environment/The Healing Child and the Toxic Parent (working titles) both of which I am putting a lot of time into. Right now, The Healed Child is the one I am focusing the most on at the moment. It is picking a lot of the scabs that have healed, and dredging up old memories, and having to take a moment to sit with them, digest them, and put fingers to keyboard to type it out, and then change it to protect those persons who are still alive and that could be affected by my use of real world, lived life experiences. 

So that is life in a nutshell at this moment in time. I hope you take some time to check out the YouTube Channel and the Podcast, and give the books website a gander.