Where have I been?

 So I know it has been forever since I've updated this. But if you have been following along with the Podcast or the YouTube channel then you will know that I have been writing a book. And along with doing that, I have been having some ups and downs with my health, and a ton of stress here and there.

I start with my biological egg carton. So she's been homeless, and then she was living with a lady, her son, his girlfriend, and another woman. That all was a toxic soup of wiggers and ghetto dealings. So she was living in transitional housing after having left that situation. But her health has really taken a turn for the worse, and regardless of what you believe, I blame the COVID Vaccine. 
She was never one for poor health, and certainly never one for being in the hospital for anything. Since getting her shots she has been in and out of the hospital for a total of 14 times. She's now moved out of the transitional housing and into an apartment. I honestly don't expect her to be there that long. I've already warned her that her next stop is going to be a nursing home and to be a full ward of the state at that point. She's still using meth, and is already doing everything that she did prior to becoming homeless the first time. I've talked with her social worker and told him in not so many words, that she needed to be in a care facility if this didn't work out.

I've had some excitement with my car. I decided that I wanted to take out my neighbors mailboxes. In doing so, I cracked my windshield, and left a huge gash all the way down my car. That cost me over $80 to fix. And now my check engine light has come on sporting the error code P0026 which can be anything from a valve sensor, to low oil. Thankfully I think it was just low oil, because my car has a small oil leak and I have to get it topped up every week to week and a half, and well I hadn't had that done when the light started coming on. I don't like to bother the service station that I go to if they are busy, even though it is part of my service for having my oil changed there. So I'm supposed to call the car dealership and have them diagnose my error code and give me an estimate on how much it will be to fix it. Which being only a few days before the holidays start, and I having no money for the repairs let alone that holidays I have no freaking clue what I'm to do.

My mental health has been fairly stable over the last few weeks with the threat of depression sneaking in, but only being a mild form of disappointment and being sad. Which is a nice change from the crippling depression that I normally face.

I'm still going to the YMCA Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Though they've had some staffing issues, and have been closed a few days here and there. But its becoming more of a habit and a way to socialize rather than the exercise it once was, if I'm to be honest. I still push myself to try and get the workout that I need. And I do feel better going there. Not only for the socialization aspect of it, but because its helping me to get a bit stronger. I am going to try and get aback out on the trails and do my walking again this coming year. Even if that means just starting over from ground zero and building myself back up to the walk. I may have to start using CBD products again just to power through the  pain and discomfort. But with degenerative disc disease being the latest prognosis, it explains why my lower back is always in pain.

And as I mentioned before, I am in the process of writing a book. It is a daily inspirational quotation book with writing prompts and journaling areas. The book is for self help from the point of view of someone who has depression and mental health issues. As of the time of this post I have 158 entries left to write, and then I can begin formatting it and then work on getting reviews, and then getting it published. I don't have any grand ideas or expectation's that its going to fly off the shelves and that I'm going to become a literary genius over this work. It's more of a work of love at this point. That even if it can help just one person, it would make it worth it. Though when I do get it published, I already have another book in the making that I could then focus my time on.

So when I'm not busy working on the book, the podcast, or the YouTube channel, I have been doing crafting. I've been making handmade journals, and traditional style witches brooms, and doing other assorted crafts. I'm trying to get at least one thing in my house done a day, and need to have someone come over to take a look at a few things that are above my paygrade, and handyman abilities. 

But in all it has been a very short, but long year thus far. And with all the ups and downs found within the dynamic's of life, here we are in a nut shell. 

I hope that you take a look at the YouTube every now and then and check out the Podcast too. And look for my book coming out. Im giving my self a publish date of March 2025. Ill be updating all the socials about it, and of course here too.