Doing better, feeling good!

 Well I fell as if I am finally past this last depressive spell I went through. Bella's passing, being out of sorts with my friends, feeling lonely and angry, really did a toll on me. I miss Bella daily. The adoption of Ba-Boy has really changed things in me. Im trying to keep from yelling and screaming at him, and take into consideration that even though he is a large cat, that he still is a kitten and still needs time to learn and to be trained.

Daily he does new things and shows me a new side to him. And I love him, but not as deeply as I did Bella. My heart is still very much wounded and shut off. As of right now I dont feel "attached" to him, even though im sure that I would miss him should he not be around. It's not the same. And I knew that it wouldn't be the same. And I am not placing my short comings on him as that isn't fair to him. 

So we are learning about each other still, and with time I know things will be just like they were with Bella. Having a new hobby has also be a great help. Going to the bar 2 times a week to play Trivia has been something that I have come to enjoy and actually look forward to.

There are still a great many things that I need to work on. My home, my health, and happiness. I was doing really well in getting my house under control and making it look good. But have lost that motivation. Same with my health. Though I am hoping to get back into the swing of things again here shortly. Happiness, well that will always be the carrot on the stick. 

I feel that maybe a vacation may reset things. Perhaps a trip to my mothers, and get away for a few days would be good. Maybe go for a few days and get away from it all. However, I dont know about that either. Just for now I am feeling good and hoping that it stays this way for a while.