Just some thoughts

So lately I've felt like I need to just get out and travel. Well it looks like that is going to be happening as I have plans to go to California this summer. It looks like I will be going out sometime in May or June. Im both excited and apprehensive about it. The apperhention comes from my general anxiety, and I know im going to have tons of fun when im there, just the whole having to deal with the airport, and getting from my house to the airport, and TSA and all that other crap. And then on the return having to do it all over again.
I have all these aspirations to go to the East Coast, and to go here or there, but honestly, the anxiety of doing it really gets to me. Even doing a 3 hour road trip gets to me at times. But I know it will be all good and that the ends will justify the means. Plus I have never been to Northern California, so its going to be all brand new for me. And theres talks of staying a night or two in San Francisco which sounds super fun.
Also this summer, my friends want to do a Staycation and do a few camping trips, and a trip to Anacortes. The few times I've been to Anacortes it has been fun. And I have never been camping with my friends, so that will be fun. I just hope everything pans out the way that we all think it should. On another note. I feel like i am losing my weight loss battle. I feel like I am just macking way to much food at night, and that coupled with the fat that I dont really exercise all that much is starting to give me less and less hope. But I am going to try to continue doing the best that I can and power through it. The doctor said that I had lost 15lbs, so I am hoping that my anxiety isnt going to get the better of me and I just stop with the progression that I have made so far.
Currently I have a lot of uneasy feelings and feelings of being hallow. I dont know what to do to fix it, so I am hoping that getting away from my house and life for a few days. will do me some good.