A long Journey

So its been a very long time since I was able to properly update the blog. I have had numerous issues with it over the last year or two. One of the biggest issues was the fact that my IT person deleted all my old posts when trying to back everything up for me. The hosting was always up and down. And I just couldn't get logged in at times to update. And then when I was able to, the damn wordpress site would lock up and crash. So now after having hired someone to work on the blog for me, I am now moved over to Blogger and things should be back to normal.

Since last posting about whats really going on in life, which was The Horrible Hoarding in which I had mentioned that I had started working on my house and doing cleaning and what have you. So prior to that and something im not sure that I posted about, I had gotten into a relationship. Now this happened back in Jan 2016. Well as of May 25th of 2017 that is no longer the case. There were to many things that just couldnt be agreed upon or fixed. They didnt understand my mental and physical health conditions, and I couldnt seem to understand their “needs”.

This has been the first time in my life that I have ever willingly walked away from a relationship and not been the one who was dumped or left broken. And I sure as hell dont wish that the other person to be broken about it. But it just got to the point where I was just DONE. I felt like I was fighting and trying all the time, albeit that they felt differently, it was still something that I felt I did, and that I gave my all. So as long as I feel this way, that is how I see the closure of this relationship. Now I wanted to be with this person for the rest of my life. I was so attracted to the mental stimulation, the creative spark, the beautiful soul, and the ambitions of this person, and even overlooked some of the other things that we were not compatible in, like politics (I have Democratic views, they are Republican), current events, Gay/Trans Rights (I being for, they being against most) , and many other issues.

Friends and family always said “Michael, I dont know how the hell you are dealing with this. You dont put yourself out for anyone, EVER. I have never seen you put so much effort into anything, especially a relationship.” – My Mother and Sister. “Michael you are so much better than the drama. They dont realize how special and worth it you are and if they let you slip they are crazy” – My friends

So like I said I feel good with the decision to walk away. I am sad that the relationship didnt work out, as I had high hopes, but well good intentions and roadways to hell and all that right? The other big bummer about it was that I got close with the parents, and now I dont know if I will be seeing them ever again. Yeah Im that weirdo that was going to be happy with the In-Laws, if we had ever gotten married.

So now that I am back on the “market” I am going to do things a bit differently. Prior to this relationship, I had been single from June 2004 – January 2016. So in that time I learned alot about myself and who I was, what I wanted, and what I needed. So this time around, Im going to openly, actively date or at least look for a new relationship. And if I find one in a month or in a year then great. Meantime, Im going to focus on my blogging, and my other little side “hussles” and get my health back under control. Do some traveling. And keep going to the gym for as long as I can get the membership taken care of.

So here is my first official blog post as a newly single person. And my first official blog post on the new Blogger server/platform.