One Step forward…two steps back

I am feeling like im not making to much progress in my life right now. I have undergone this change in which I am trying to clean and organize things in my life. But it seems like every time I make the slightest bit of progress, I back slide. I have resolved to try and keep moving forward regardless of personal self sabotage.

I have a goal in mind and though it seems like nothing to many people for me it’s a large step. I want to eventually have my home nice and clean and put together so that I can start having people over, and it look nice and organized. I also have been lacking on my updates both here on the blog and the YouTube channel but well I cant do it all at the same time and have to allocate my energies. My over all end result is that by this time next year, I am hoping to have everything in place to maybe start dating again. Which is something else that I am struggling with.

I have been single and celibate for almost 10 years now, and where I am happy being on my own, I am finding that there is a lack in my life that may be filled by having someone there. Another one of my projects that I am hoping on beginning is writing. I have wanted to author a book for a long time and feel that I may be at a point here very soon to start scribing those pages. However, I am not sure the topic as of yet. I am not sure if I want to write some fiction, a self help book, a new age inspired book, or what.
I have been inspired lately so I guess I should take that inspiration and run with it. Might be something that I can co-author, I don’t know. But with the world of desktop publishing and e-reader’s and the like, it shouldn’t be to hard to get published. No the hard part is the resolve and dedication and the focus to actually bang out a book.

Well for fear of rambling I am going to stop here for now.