Doing ‘homework’

So I have been undergoing a lot of spiritual soul searching. Being an emotional person like I am, Im always plagued with questions, and am constantly searching for answers.
Sometimes those answers make themselves known, other times they never get revealed.

I have had several people tell me over the last few days that I may not be willing to change. But I honestly don’t think that I am unwilling to change. I’ve just been doing things the same way for so long that Im really not sure I will be able to change.
Im just feeling lost right now. I have so much going on in my head and cant really pin point any one direction I want to go or explore…