To much going on

So I have a friend who I really truly and dearly love who has come to see some other friends here in Washington, However, I would love to go see her but there just isnt any room for me to see her at our mutual friends houses, and its really upsetting me because I haven’t seen her in 4 or 5 years.

Its right on the Portland, OR and Washington boarder. My biological mother lives in Portland, however, she drives me crazy and its really not the best of living situations. I have found a way for me to get down to see Jen for less than $40 which anyone who knows, that is super cheap for travel (especially since that’s round trip)
The other problem that I am having is that I am having some serious anxiety issues regarding trying to figure out routes and schedules and things like that.

I don’t know what to do. Should I stay or should I go.