Greatful

Today was a very fun and unexpected experience, I totally got kidnapped by some friends as I was sitting at the bus stop. It was an impromptu encounter. All we did was talk shit, go back to their place, hung out, and just enjoyed the chilliness of it all. I love random shit like that. Ive needed to just get out and hang with people lately and it was nice to have done so. And i really didnt need to be on point with anything just got to let my hair down and be a homie.

After the last few days I have really just needed an escape from myself and my life and it was nice to find that in the most random way ever. Something just told me to walk a little slower, and to just do things a bit differently today and sure as shit, it worked out. I am learning to really trust my inner voice and follow what my spirit tells me. I am in a really good place with myself right now and for the first time I feel somewhat balanced.

Im not an overly religious person but I am spiritual, and I did a rededication of self a few weeks ago and it just seems like everything is falling into place for me. I am seeing little blessings all around, and just feeling blessed. So I am thankful for the gifts being bestowed upon me by the universe. Im staying humble and taking time through out my day to just breath it all in and try to just give back a little here and there as i can. I have always given of myself but this is different. This is coming from a place of love and gratitude and just over all mindfulness of what gifts I have and what I can share.

There is a paradigm shift in my life and im trying to honor it by not being boastful. I am remaining humble and trying to show more humility. I am a very emotionally complex person and I hide alot of what I think and feel, though those who know me would disagree, but honestly, I dont say as much as I should, and the things that I dont say could actually cause more damage than anything. I am brutal and honest, and blunt. That is the person I have become. I dont typically hold back, regardless of being right, wrong, or indifferent. If its how I feel, its what I express, many times to the chagrin of others. Which sometimes causes hurt feelings or people thinking im an asshole.

So Im trying to listen more, speak less, and when I do speak I try to make my words matter. So these are the changes of self I have been working on and trying to implement. Hopefully I am doing a good job?