Taking care of yourself when you don’t

Today my Diabetes Educator and I had a long session where we were talking about how I’ve slipped back into some of my bad habits and how that is affecting my A1C Levels, and how the ends justify the means, meaning that as I allow myself to go unchecked, the complications in the future are going to be sever.

I had an ah ha moment while I was at a Vascular Clinic. My doctor and I thought that I may be developing blood cots because of some swelling that has occurred in my leg, and some pain I’ve been having.
As I laid there with the technician running the Doppler over my legs checking blood flow and circulation, it hit me….this could be a consultation in the future to discuss amputation. That with what my D.E. and I talked about, really hit home. I will be 30 this year, I weigh 421lbs, am Diabetic, have bad knees, lower back pain, and other problems…WTF!

I make excuses when all I need to do is just start off with baby steps like I had back in August. I do get overwhelmed with my diabetes, as I am sure every diabetic out there does. But I am not willing to spend my live with doctors hacking away at my body, chasing my diabetes until I am noting more than a torso.

I need to reinforce myself and pray for the strength to carry on in my quest for better health. Writing here in this blog has really helped me and I am looking forward to being more positive and making things really happen.