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Tuesday, March 17, 2020

COVID-19 Lockdown

Day 2 into the COVID-19 lockdown and it is good-ish so far. For the most part it really hasnt affected me as my local grocery store is still open, and most of the restaurants around town are still open but for curbside orders only. But anything "fun" like going to the bar or out to the movies is a no go. Which is ok I guess, as there really isnt anything out that I want to watch right now any ways. But not going to the bar is something new for me. I dont really drink, but I have been enjoying going to the local watering hole every thursday for $0.50 chicken wings and meeting up with friends. You can feel a tension in the air. People are taking things on the chin for the most part. But you can tell that the wick is short and the powder keg is primed and ready to explode.
For several days, I have been having nightmares, and feeling like things are going to be changing in a big way and that this whole thing is just a trojan horse that is going to lead to something more sinister and permanent.

The isolation is what is the hardest to deal with. As someone who deals with depression, it is a trigger to be isolated. Its one thing when I am depressed and want to stay in bed all day, but its another thing when I am feeling "good" and wanting to go out and do all of the things, which strangely is the case right now. I can't sleep, and im restless. So I have been doing a lot of YouTube videos, and some other projects. Im thinking that I am going to end up doing some massive spring cleaning, and making a bunch of trips to the local dumpster and to the dump if its still open. I wnet out the other day and bought a large bag of cat food and I still need to get another bag or two of litter but if all else fails I can always just shovel some dirt into my cats box. But I will admit, I am worried and stressed over all of this. But aren't we all?

Stay strong guys. We'll make it through this. Right?


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