Time is passing differently

 Lately it seems like time is passing differently for me. I'm either 3 days ahead or 5 days behind. Everything in my body is telling me that it is February or March, yet the calendar is telling me its almost June.I go outside and see all of the summer flowers and trees blooming, I see all of the signs of it being summer. But for whatever reason, it doesn't feel like summer to me. Is this part...

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Just who do you think you're talking to? DID Post

I carry a secret deep within, one that has always been there, but recently given light to.I look like a typical person, talk like a typical person, and for the most part act like a typical person.However, just behind my eyes, there's a whole world of people. There are old ones, young ones, male and...

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My inner child is crying - DID Post

 I was called today to come over to a friends house to talk with their granddaughter, because she was being bullied at school. Some kids were body shaming her and making her cry. So I was asked to come over and talk with her.In true to form, it legit was kids just being mean, evil, bullies and spewing hatred. As she was telling me what was going on with her, and the things that she was being...

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Me day!

So, before I start my post, it's entitled "Me day" but I was out with a friend.Yesterday was a me day. I took some of the money that I have saved up and went out with a friend and had a day of self-pampering. It started off with lunch at one of those places where you get a bowl, fill it full of veggies, meat, and noodles, and then they cook it up on a flat oven and give you a bit of rice. Not my number...

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The messages the universe has been giving me - and my first DID post

 And so, as it typically goes, my last few months have been poopy, as I turned 44yrs old and for whatever reason I always have some depression during my birthday and a few days to a week afterwards.So, this year was no different except that in the early part of March, someone approached me as a new friend/potential relationship. I am not pursued very often, and so when it does, it activates...

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A lot going on

 So there has been a lot going on lately, and some of it good, some of it not so good, and still yet some just the middle of the road.The very first major change has been that as of March 20th 2025 my biological mother passed away. She had been on a steady decline for the better part of 2 years. With the last 8 months being the worse. I got to see her one last time before her passing. But when...

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Late nights

 This last week has been very interesting. If you follow the YouTube or the Podcast, then you'll know that there are a lot of things that going on right now. Firstly, my biological mother's health has been greatly declining and has only about 4 - 6 months to live. I went to Portland to see her, begrudgingly, but knowing that the trip would more than likely be the last time that I saw her. I didn't...

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Health, Politics, and the boundless unknown

Where to start? As of today Trump has been in office 17 days. I'm that time he's called for a end to Transgender Military enrollment, has ”declared" that there are only 2 genders (factual science has proven otherwise), ”shut down" TikTok for 9hrs only to ”reopen” it a full day before he was officially in office. Threatened deportations, cuts to Medicare and SNAP benefits, given Elon Musk powers and...

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Today gonna be a day

 At the time of writing this, I am sitting at my computer fully dressed head to toe in my nicest outfit, getting ready to go to a celebration of life for a dear friend of mine. Im tired as all get out, but I cant sleep right now because im afraid that 1. I wont wake up in time and 2 that I will wrinkle my clothing more than they already are from me trying to put them on.And with everything that...

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2025

We'll it's now 2025 which means it's a whole new year. And I'm just a few days we'll have a president who shouldn't be in office, but I guess that's neither here nor there. People tend to make resolutions every year with the hopes and faith that they'll see them through, and where I think it's great to try and set goals and manifest, when it comes down to it, most never keep them. I've not...

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