Some early morning musings

 I have been doing my best to get back walking and to get back to a time where I was able to get out and see things I had never seen before. I was a bit happier, but still dealing with a ton of mental health issues. I am still dealing with my mental health but I think that I have a better grasp on it now than I did 5yrs ago. This doesn't mean that I am 100% cured or anything.

The last 6 months of 2024 and the first 6 months of 2025 have really been tough lessons to learn and to grow from. The latter part of 2024 found me almost checking out for good, even though I was still pushing to try and get my book published. Now that it is live and published and open for the world to find, I find it somewhat ironic that as a mental health advocate, and now a published author, that I was so close to self harm. However, that is the sad, dark, bitter truth of living with depression. You never know how you are going to react when your brain just starts acting dumb.

But as I sit here and type this at 8:07am on a Tuesday morning before starting my day, I am taking a moment I guess, to just allow the grateful and silent prayer click away on my keyboard. Watching the cars drive by on the busy street with no knowledge of me or my inner workings. Each a contained universe unto themselves. Im thankful that I have had the strength to pull myself through that darkness each time I have. Im not sure that I can or will always be able to. But for now, I'm good. 

With each reluctant step I take in my daily intentional walking, I realize that Im getting stronger, a little better, and a little closer to my ultimate goal of getting ready to undertake my next big challenge. Walking the 130 miles of The Larry Scott Trail, The Olympic Discovery Trail and the Olympic Adventure Trail (all the same thing just named differently in other areas.)